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April Blues

The start of my April is actually not so good. I should be enjoying life ‘coz it’s our vacation already. But certain things have caused me to feel kind of down lately. Waaahhh! For heaven’s sake! Why is this happening? I used to be a happy-go-lucky person. But now, I’ve been filled with too much negativity. Aaarrrggghhh! I’ve been through a lot of frustrations and I don’t want additions. :(

Here’s a list of the things that got me concerned lately (and don’t even care about how small some of these things are):

  • The sadomasochism thing. I’m actually thinking less about it already. But one fact remains: a part of me doesn’t want those weird thoughts to stop. Err.
  • I haven’t had my period for 2 months already! Two months!
  • My navel, ears, nose, and eyes have something wrong with them. Maybe my whole body is malfunctioning now?
  • I need money! Seriously! Honestly, I want to save up for a laptop ‘coz it’s gonna be one heck of a need during my 4th and 5th years in college. Paper works! Loads of them! I think my mom would contribute some cash but I don’t want her to shoulder it all.
  • In connection to the need of cash, I’m kind of frustrated with [insert store's name here]. We submitted our resumés to them after they told us that they offer summer jobs. I was glad because they called me for an interview sked. When the day came, I just knew then that they’re not looking for summer jobbers. They need part-timers. Rarr! Talk about vagueness!
  • And in connection to that, I’m compelled to exert full force in making money online ‘coz it’s the only way left for me to gain moolah. I have signed up in other monetizing sites that I haven’t checked out yet. If fate permits, I hope I could increase the PR and traffic of this site again so that I’ll have more sponsored tasks to do. I’m really kind of desperate now. :( (I’m not monetizing iFancy.Me ‘coz it’s my personal sanctuary. But sometimes, I’m tempted to do so because it has better stats than all my other blogs.)
  • Our computer crashes several times a day. I’m tired of turning it on and off over and over again. I can’t deal with this crap when school starts again. So…
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  • I need cash. Bad. ly. :ballcry2:

I’m sorry the money thing had to repeat.

While I’m writing this entry (and ever since a while ago), my eyebrows are either furrowed or drooping sideways. I hope you get what I mean. Not just literally, but the feeling that goes with it.

Posted on April 2, '09 by Mikyu, under Rants and Raves.

28 Comments to “April Blues”

   #1 Posted by Tin (04.02.09 at 02:16 )

Aww,same here. Im a jolly person but lately sobrang negative ko.scary no?im trying my best nga na wag maging nega pero di maiiwasan. Normal naman siguro to. About sa period, naexperience ko din yan. Baka may prob na motherboard nyo,ganun kasi nangyari sa pc ko dati.i hope makaipon ka agad pambili laptop. :)

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   #2 Posted by shalee (04.02.09 at 10:26 )

peshte jd tong “djdhdhfdnjh” kuy..kwarta na ta to..

ako pd ani kuy,i need money too..lots of money..hahahaha..para kita nah tanan naay laptop..:)

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   #3 Posted by janelle (04.02.09 at 13:06 )

maybe you’re just stressed that’s why you’re thinking of tons of negative things :D i’m sure everything will be ok :)

i’m also in deep need of money and i’m also enrolled in different money making schemes (schemes pa talaga eh nu haha!) online. hehe! good luck sa paggawa ng pera :) i’m sure you’ll be able to buy that laptop you wanted :D just patience my dear :D

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   #4 Posted by iggy (04.02.09 at 13:12 )

pagpart time cal girl nlng…mintras wala ay thesis

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Mikyu's reply:
April 2nd, 2009 at 2:10 pm

Ngek! Pg.xur ra gd! Hahahaha. XD

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   #5 Posted by April (04.02.09 at 14:16 )

Sino bang di kaylangan ng pera bes? Haha. Kung ano sa tingin mo ang tama, dun ka. Whether you like it or not, kaylangan mong magsacrifice. Heh. Though may laptop kami dito, ang dalang kong magamit kasi gamit ni father sa work. Pft. Wala rin eh. Good luck na lang satin.

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   #6 Posted by gail. (04.03.09 at 08:31 )

maybe you’re stressed. Try cheering up a little and get back to the old days where in ur jolly.
hmm, I know, most of need moolah 4 different kind of reasons. The best thing you can do is balance your life. Dont push yourself too much to the darkness. Be happy and find out more things to suit your emptiness.

hhi. Im not sure if I helped. xD Gudluck w/ ur money making career.

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   #7 Posted by Helena (04.03.09 at 10:44 )

I think it’s great you don’t want your mum to shoulder your lap top, I’ve clicked all the ads on your page, hope it helps ;)

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Mikyu's reply:
April 3rd, 2009 at 12:31 pm

Thanx for the effort! *hugs*

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   #8 Posted by honie (04.03.09 at 11:49 )

ya..uhhhmm. i can feel the sadness sis..and the urge for money..

hays.. just pray sis and everything will go well..

Uhhmm.. bout your period, its time you have a check up to know what’s the problem..

good luck sis….

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   #9 Posted by Keiyt (04.03.09 at 15:33 )

I’m badly need of money, too. I love summer breaks but the no-baon thing is not just so cool. :(
Siguro okay na yung part time then may contract naman siguro tapos after ng contract, cool na yung mag off ka na sakanila. :D
I’m having the same problem about monthly period. pinaka matagal na wala ako 3 months ata. Going 4 months na yon pero nung 4th, nagkaroon na. Irregular talaga masyado. Worst pa nito, white yung uniform sa school so kapag super months akong wala and I don’t even have a clue kung kailan ako magkakaroon, minsan natatapat kapag nasa school. Grr. :(
Go go go sana maka survive tayo this summer! Aja! :D

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   #10 Posted by Jacque (04.03.09 at 18:24 )

I. truly. badly. need. money. too. :))

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   #11 Posted by hannah (04.03.09 at 20:14 )

ako din, desperate na to earn money. i’ve got no source of moolah this summer, tpos this is the season of ‘gala’ and all that pa naman. karirin naten ang earning money online! hehe :)) para makabili ka na ng laptop! :D
ako naman, super regular kong magkaron ng period na sometimes winiwish ko maging irreg ako para minsan lang din ang dysmenorrhea haha :D

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   #12 Posted by Kat - Kat (04.04.09 at 01:49 )

May April Blues din aku.. Maybne because of the college thing. IDK know, pero it’s hard for me na gagaraduate nko ang I’ll be parted sa ibang mga friends ko :((

ME TOO! I NEED CASH! :|

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   #13 Posted by rhoda (04.04.09 at 08:09 )

take it easy my dear or you’ll end up exhausting all your energy for these stuffs..for your physical problems, seeing your OB-GYN/doctor would help..for monetary problems, you’re too young to worry those things..as long as you’re still in your parent’s nest, they are responsible for your needs..maybe you can help but do not put too much of your energy over it..and lastly, your computer needs help..you might want to have that checked before it completely crashes down..if it’s more than 3 years, that should be for upgrade or replacement especially if you’re using it almost 24/7..besides every PC needs a preventive maintenance routine once in a while..take care always..you still have a long way head for college and for life..

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Mikyu's reply:
April 4th, 2009 at 12:15 pm

Thanx sa advice te! :D Kinda nigaan akong feelings. I think you’re right. Maybe I shouldn’t stress myself over this money-making stuff. I just hope palitan japon ku sa akuh mama ug lappy bsa’g dli kaayo dakuh akung ma.contribute. Coz I need it sa skul jd. Dghan au trabahu.on, pun.an pa’g mga council stuffs. Hmmm. :P

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   #14 Posted by Honeul (04.04.09 at 10:22 )

ooh, I need money too lalo na malapit na magbakasyon and wala na naman ako sweldo, lols. Kaya ngayon, puro blog earnings ang tumutulong sa akin.
woah, 2 months? nagpa-check ka na ba, or is it normal?

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   #15 Posted by Aimee (04.04.09 at 13:36 )

hahaha! mao ka… red ribbon! walay klaro jud sah?? I asked them naman if okay lang mag-SUMMER JOB sa kanila, sabi okay lang. . duh! what part of summer job ba hindi nila naintindihan??

and yeah, everybody needs money! sana may pagkakakitaan na rin ako.. i was planning pa naman to have a business this summer.. but the freakin’ summer class got in the way!!

hhhmmmm.. pa-check-up na kyu :)

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   #16 Posted by Karen (04.04.09 at 15:48 )

Oh, we’re the same mikyu. :) Bakit kaya 2 months na wala parin? That’s odd. Ask a doctor why ganun? It could be serious or not.

About your pc crashing. Baka may virus na. Or, yung memory. Ganyan din kasi yung nangyari sa pc namin before.

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   #17 Posted by Gel (04.04.09 at 22:31 )

We all need money Mikyu. It’s just that we have different reasons for being in need of money haha. Maybe you can do paid layouts or something? Kunyari papagawa sayo for like $10 lang, yung ganun. I’m sure somebody out there would be interested diba. Good luck in saving for a laptop!

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   #18 Posted by WANITS (04.04.09 at 22:55 )

I kinda understand how you feel about the negative feeling. I felt that a lot of time before my graduation~! :( But I’m happy it all passed now…

Just don’t lose hope! Maybe tomorrow manalo ka kung saan and dumami pera mo :)) (Sinabi ko rin ‘to kay Kuya Pahn.) Haha! :D Makakbili karin ng laptop with your own effort :>

Goodluck huh! & Be positive! Kaya mo yan!! :)

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   #19 Posted by jhoana (04.05.09 at 15:21 )

aw! goodluck on EARNING sis! hihi i-claim na naten! yay~ and also sa laptop! kaya mo yan!!

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   #20 Posted by jessa (04.07.09 at 23:52 )

i feel your frustration mik… and i too need money so bad! hehehe.. actually mik, i know a way to earn money so easily… i’ll pm you.. hehehe.. that is, if you’re really interested…

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Mikyu's reply:
April 8th, 2009 at 2:21 pm

How man Es? Is that for real? Hehehe. :P

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jessa's reply:
April 8th, 2009 at 5:09 pm

yup! it’s for real… YM ta for details.. hehe

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   #21 Posted by KYM (04.08.09 at 12:45 )

aw. i hope you get a summer job soon so you can start saving up for your laptop dear. :)

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   #22 Posted by Ayei (04.08.09 at 18:38 )

shox same teu sis ganun din ako ni2 lately laging frustrated,annoyed,freaking depressed, freaking busy, and such as in i dunno why kahit ung period ko until now wala pa rin ako XD ewan ko ba moody rin ako nito lately >_< and money! heck me too I really need one kea nmn ung mga plano gusto ko n ituloy para wala na problema sa income :D I hope ikaw din sis kea natin ito!!

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   #23 Posted by Alyssa (04.11.09 at 00:34 )

You’re really stressing out too much on the bad things that are happening to you sis. Maybe you should occupied yourself with something that you like to do to distract yourself. not having your period for 2 months? i think it’s still normal sis. go see a doctor if it’s 4 or 5 months already :) I hope you earn more money soon. I’m also poor right now. Every summer I was like this, haha.

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