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Sadomasochism

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Do you know what sadomasochism means? Well, according to Wikipedia, sadomasochism is used in psychiatry to describe either the co-occurrence of sadism and masochism in one person as separate disorders, or as a replacement for both terms. Want me to elaborate? Okay. Dictionary.com describes sadism as the deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from cruelty, and masochism as the deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself. They’re similar in terms of the infliction of pain for pleasure. The difference is the object of pain. Sadism = others; masochism = self.

Why am I telling you this? :oniquestion:

Just recently, when I’m alone, a lot of weird things pop up in my mind. And one of those things is seeing other people being tortured or something. And I like thinking about it over and over again, with a matching red-black theme. In case you didn’t know, red-black is my favorite color combination (you can add white and I’d still love it). And I like thinking about gloomy/emo/dark/gothic stuffs. I don’t know. It’s just… me. I don’t really know why I keep on thinking about those stuffs. All I know is that whenever I think about them, my eyes would just go wide in my head (meaning, I don’t show it) and a feeling of ecstasy starts. I may be a little exaggerating here. But… you get the point. You might say I’m kinda making up this stuff just so I could say something out of the ordinary. But, no. It’s true. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be wasting my time typing this entry.

I think it might have been better if I just kept it to myself to avoid disturbance to other people and the like. But if I did, I’d be the one to suffer from disturbance. Well, it’s nothing major, really. But the thought of me thinking about those things is kinda disturbing itself. Is it still normal? Uhh, I think it still is. I didn’t do anything harmful anyway that could prove my being a sadist/masochist. Oh, I think I’m more of a sadist than a masochist (it’s just a bit, okay? nothing too strong) ‘coz I haven’t thought of myself being the one inflicted with pain. :crazy:

I don’t know if you have read this plurk of mine. But it was the first time I vented out about this thing.

And I’m actually into Flyleaf now, especially their song All Around Me. I just watched the video and… you just go on and watch it. Flyleaf is some kind of a “dark” band but, hey, don’t get me wrong. They’re a Christian band, if I read it right somewhere. If you could just read their bio, then you’d understand their music.

By the way, if you want to offer a little comfort, I’d be happy to receive it. But please don’t get it going all around. I hope to keep it just here in Animik. Not anywhere else. :onixmouth:

Posted on March 31, '09 by Mikyu, under Rants and Raves.

16 Comments to “Sadomasochism”

   #1 Posted by Aimee (03.31.09 at 16:42 )

masochism reminds me of twilight.. XD

anyway, is something wrong? like something that provoked you to write this? :( yeah, something you might wanna share… with me? XD

and.. have you seen me being tortured or something…inside your head? :) hehehe.. silly me! XD

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Mikyu's reply:
March 31st, 2009 at 4:53 pm

Uhh, mao 2. I keep on thinking about weird things. Death of people… How they’re killed… The blood and stuffs… Waaahhh. :|

Random people ra mn ang ma.sud sa akong utok. Faceless most of the time. I mean kanang wala nakuh ma.ilhan… Agui… ;p

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   #2 Posted by shalee (03.31.09 at 16:52 )

hmmmmm…wla akong maSAY..kuan lng cgro…cats are either sadist/masochist…male cats are sadists while the females are the opposite…:)

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Mikyu's reply:
March 31st, 2009 at 4:56 pm

I’m not a cat.

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   #3 Posted by Alyssa (03.31.09 at 17:20 )

Maybe it’s just a phase in your life sis.
diba minsan ganun naman tayo?
as long as you’re not hurting yourself naman eh.
oh i know Flyleaf too. my brother likes them :)

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   #4 Posted by Nnie (03.31.09 at 18:07 )

Cool!
We have a same problem, honestly I keep thinking about those stuff too.

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   #5 Posted by Kat - Kat (03.31.09 at 18:16 )

I’m not a fan of flyleaf.. but I do like one of their songs. Uhmmm. I forget the title. Bsta. Yung All Around Me din ata yun ~

well, if don’t be bothered kung ganyan ka sis :D kase nga sabi mo, “it’s just .. me” dba?? :D I think it’s not bad nman dba? :)
red and black is pretty cool for me :D

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   #6 Posted by Helena (03.31.09 at 19:21 )

Well yeah Flyleaf is a Christian band but I can’t find a dark theme in it, for me Flyleaf heals me a lot, as it is to the vocalist Lacey Mosley, who is trying to sing and heal herself.

I’m glad you shared your thought, and yes it’s pretty normal for you to have thoughts like that. Some times I prefer to go away with crowds so I don’t get the chance to be alone and start to think of stuff, I feel sick.

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   #7 Posted by Jo (03.31.09 at 20:26 )

I don’t see anything wrong with sadism Mik, as long as it is all in the mind. There are worse people, those who actually do sadistic things in real life (thus, not just in the mind). I myself sometimes find pleasure in other people’s pain, but a little mabaw lng cguro akong level (like that guy’s ass getting bitten by a shark in MTV’s wildboys..hehe and that sorta stuff). Masochism is another story. I’m a scaredy cat, and finding pleasure in my own pain is definitely a no-no. But hey, that’s just me. :)

Phase ra cguro na, mik. I suggest you think happy thoughts. Live, Laugh, Love. Life’s too short. :)

xx

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jessa's reply:
April 1st, 2009 at 12:21 am

i agree with jo 100%… as long as it is all in the mind, it’s not really that bad… unless siguro if you DO sadistic things and become like a psycho killer, now that’s a problem…

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   #8 Posted by Frances (03.31.09 at 20:42 )

So that’s the word. I think I’m also suffering from that. I don’t know why but my hypothesis is that it resulted from too much horror/mobid movies.
:| But anyway, what I do is that I keep them off my mind and try stopping these thoughts to continue.

Masochism reminds me of Edward. :))

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   #9 Posted by Luana (03.31.09 at 21:24 )

Sometimes we happen to vent all the cumulated stress in our mind, that makes up scenes of violence like the ones you’re experiencing now; but don’t worry about it, dear :) If you were a real sadist, you would go around hurting people, and you’re NOT. So just let your mind for now, you’ll see it’ll be gone soon as you let your stress or worries relieve and don’t give it too much importance. I’ve suffered from depression in the past, and I had death scenes in my mind all day; it came out that I had cumulated too much stress and my mind had broke down.

Take it easy *hugs* You’ll feel better eventually :)
As for the money, sis, I hope you’ll still get some SP’s in the time coming. Just keep your blog updated, get traffic and write correctly as in grammar and spelling, and opps will come to you ;D *hug*

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   #10 Posted by gail. (03.31.09 at 22:36 )

ok, i learned new words from you! yay! hhi. What’s wrong? hmm. I sometime feel like that to. i dont know why

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   #11 Posted by ayei (04.01.09 at 13:02 )

wow now ko lng nalaman ang tunay na meaning na word n yan lagi ko lng nababsa yan sa manga pero wala ako talaga alam kung ano ibig sabihin nean LOL! ahahaah kakaloka now i know what does it mean :D ngeun narealize ganyan din ako minsan ahahahahaha kapag bad3p ako d ko mapigilan magiisip ng torturing! others lol! ahahaha!!

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   #12 Posted by April (04.01.09 at 15:32 )

I haven’t heard of that word ever bes! Right now I’m still clueless. Ano ba yang naiisip mo, puro negative. Siguro try to divert your attention to positive side na lang. And kahit na nasa mind mo lang yan baka kung ano effect nyan sayo. Wag mo na lang siguro isipin, if not, lessen it. Para kahit pano you’ll feel better.

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   #13 Posted by janelle (04.01.09 at 18:26 )

hey, maybe that’s just you :) as long as you’re not stepping on someone be proud of who you are :) you’re unique. be proud! hehe :D
about flyleaf naman, ngayon ko lang nalaman na christian band sila :) i have nothing against them, favorite din kasi yan ng isa kong close friend. hek hek :D

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